Jake Emerson Perez (13 years old) and Jonathan Salvador (16 years old)
Paulo Landayan of FEU, 3rd Party
I am fond of watching Gay movies and I always make a critique after I watched the film. I always criticize those movies using the approaches that I had learned during my college days. Usually, those movies were the fruits of the imagination of the writers and the directors, that is why, the plot, the scenes, the actors were all awe-inspiring. But not until today, when my officemate had forwarded me an e-mail in my Outlook about a 13-year-old boy who shot his alleged 16-year-old boyfriend, then himself in SM Pampanga.
I was appalled; it is hard to believe that it really happened. Due to disillusionment and jealousy, it can bring into being such strong emotions that he cannot think rationally and may act on his impulses without thinking about the consequences, known as Crime of Passion.
I looked at their photos, sighs, they were young, pleasurable and handsome, and I am so gloomy. Not because I am gay, not because I understand them, it is because they ruined and wasted their life. I can't blame Jake Emerson Perez because he was just a simple guy, an amorous narcissist who wanted to show his real feeling toward Jonathan. I can't blame Jonathan Salvador as well if he has another guy, Paulo Landayan, because that's how the gay world works, gays or bisexuals are polygamous.
I know that they are the characters in this story, but ever since, I always encourage myself not to engage to any serious relationship because I myself is polygamy and I know that gays/bisexuals are intimate, green-eyed, theatrical and compulsive.
But in the end, I realized that Jake, I understand him. It is about the love and distrust that he felt and there is a very big despair for that. It wasn't a suicide endeavor; it was an escape from everything dreadful. When we feel too much grief, we're not in control - we make our own pain and we can stop it whenever we want. Physical pain relieves mental anguish. But Jonathan’s life must not be taken away; Jake didn’t have the right to take his life and Jonathan’s. He has his own life and he must let him happy. They're too young for this and the future waits for them, but now it’s gone, they don't have the chances. Life is so unfair but we have our own happiness that God created for us, and we must live for it.
